這是我開始經歷轉變的第一個神蹟。我得到了多年的專業治療，以及透過沙漠江河事工Desert Stream Ministries (Cross Current and Living Waters) 課程的幫助。這些課程在理解同性相吸和遠離同志的過程中起著重要作用。儘管這些諮詢和課程從來沒有承諾過我會從誘惑中得到解脫，但它們提供給我工具，可以讓我去依據上帝的對性別的原始設計來生活。
離開同志生活六年後，我遇到了我的妻子艾曼達，“她是上帝從天上賜予的禮物”。我們於2009年結婚。五年後，上帝賜給我們的女兒Aliah，她的名字在希伯來語中意為“向神升去”。2016年9月，艾曼達生下了我們的兒子Ryker，他的名字叫“堅強的領袖”。在2018年，我們的第三個孩子Asher Elizabeth 出生了，意為“再沒有比這更好的祝福了。”
I never imagined that I would enter the homosexual lifestyle after being raised in a God-fearing home and accepting Christ at age seven. However, after I graduated from college, I was so desperate to love and be loved that I didn’t care that my partner was HIV and hepatitis C positive.
Nonetheless, when I lost all my worldly possessions on June 8, 2002, God changed my life forever. I heard God’s voice telling me to come back to Him. I told God, “I’m yours again,” and I began to realize that His strength is made perfect in my weakness. The next morning, I found $5.00 on the sidewalk. The second I picked it up, I heard God say, “I took care of the Israelites in the desert; I’ll take care of you in yours.”
This was the first of many miracles that began my journey of transformation. I pursued years of professional therapy, as well as programs through Desert Stream Ministries (Cross Current and Living Waters). These tools were instrumental when it came to understanding same-sex attraction and walking in freedom from homosexuality. Although the counseling and programs never promised I would be freed from temptation, they provided tools to pursue a way of life using God’s design for sexuality.
Then in 2005, I began dating! I remember thinking, “Wow, God. The plumbing you designed for the opposite sex is working!” Although I dated many women, I never thought I’d find a wife because I was 34 years old and “the good ones were already taken.” That’s when I gave up my quest and told God I would focus on His kingdom. Yet God had something better planned for me…
Six years after leaving the gay lifestyle, I met my wife, Amanda, “God’s gift from heaven.” We were married in 2009, and five years later God blessed us with our daughter, Aliah, whose name in Hebrew means “ascending to God.” In September 2016, Amanda gave birth to our son, Ryker, whose name means “strong leader.” In 2018, our third child, Asher Elizabeth, was born — and I couldn’t be more blessed.
I love being a husband and “Daddy” to our three children and am no longer desperate to love and be loved.