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Laurie Jean Wilson




講述你從過去的自己走到現在的自己,不是一件容易的事情。

性虐待、被人忽略、性騷擾、缺乏與父母的聯繫,無論有意還是無意的,都可能導致形成我們這些掙扎于同性慾望的人群。我們對環境的感知塑造我們。有時我們的感知可能是錯誤的,但它是我們的感知,我們需要處理這種感知帶來的後果。

大約16歲時我意識到對同性的吸引力。那時我不懂如何處理它,也沒人可以談論這件事。這種渴望持續增长,沒有任何人幫助我。

我17歲時成為委身的基督徒,在新信仰的興奮感中,對同性的那些渴望消失了一段時間。但是在接下來的幾年大學生活,以及全職工作的最初時期,我再次被女性吸引。經過多次掙扎後,我屈服了並進入一段同性關係中。

第一個愛人與我在一起9個月。那段時間我的信仰還在持續,但是我被困在在這兩個世界(備註:同性關係跟基督徒)之中。了解我困境的朋友們向我提供愛、接納和許多的禱告。

我人生的轉折點之一是在我做營會領袖時。主任知道我的生活處境,便邀請我進行談話。她解釋說,不論我做出任何人生的決定,她都會關心我,接納我。這種接納的態度正是我真正渴望的,她在自己的承諾中表明基督的愛。我知道她與朋友們的禱告蒙神垂聽了。

不久,布里斯班的聯合教會辦公室給我提供了一份工作。由於我很久以來想要全職服侍神,我抓住了那次機會并離開我的伴侶。我明白如果我的焦點在別處,是不能完全服侍神的。那時,在短短幾周后的一個青年營會上我遇見約翰,9個月內我們結婚了!

約翰的愛是深切的,他給我足夠的空間讓我處理那些導致我產生同性渴望的問題。經過「活水」課程、「出埃及」事工和一位非常有耐心的心理咨詢師的幫助,我處理完所有的問題。我認為那段時間最重要的事,是我決定離開所有的傷害與錯誤的觀念,它們導致我向人尋求只有父神才能給的滿足。今天,我是澳洲昆士蘭的陽光海岸(Sunshine Coast)地區的「庇護所」事工(「出埃及」事工的成員之一)主任。我有兩個男孩,一個24歲,一個33歲。我的丈夫約翰于7年前不幸離世。如果他還與我們在一起,我們應該慶祝結婚40週年了。

我們一起經歷許多事,神是信實的,祂讓我們做出「終生」的委身,以尊榮彼此。今天,我將榮耀歸於天父,依然保持獨身。生命不是關於伴侶是誰,而是關於對基督的「終生」委身和祂對我們的愛。



It can be a very hard thing to explain how you became who you were and are.

Sexual abuse, neglect, harassment, a lack of bonding with parents whether intentional or not, may play a role in forming those of us who struggle with same sex attraction. Our perception of our environment shapes us. Sometimes our perception may be wrong, but it is ours and we need to deal with the consequences of what we perceive.

At about the age of sixteen I became aware of an attraction to the same sex. I had no way of dealing with this at the time and no one to talk to. Feelings continued to grow and I had no one to help.

I became a committed Christian at 17yrs and in the excitement of my new faith those feelings of same sex attractiveness faded for a time. But during the following years whilst in college, and the beginning of full time work, I was again attracted towards women. After much struggling, I succumbed and entered into a same sex relationship.

My first lover and I were together for nine months. During this time my faith remained but, I was stranded between two worlds. My friends, who knew of my plight offered me love, acceptance and much prayer.

One of the turning points in my life was when I was a leader at a camp. The Director knew of my living situation and asked to have a chat with me. She explained that she would always care for me and accept me, no matter what decision I made about my life. It was this show of acceptance, that I was really longing for, and she was reflecting Christ’s love in her statement. I know it was her prayers and that of my friends that were answered..

Soon I was offered a job at the Uniting Church Office in Brisbane. As I had wanted to serve God full time for quite a long time, I grabbed the opportunity, and left my partner. I understood that I could not serve my God fully if my primary focus was elsewhere. Then, only a few short weeks later at a youth conference, I met John, and within nine months we were married!

John’s love was deep and he gave me the space I needed to work through the many issues that may have contributed to having same sex attraction. This has been achieved through "Living Waters" course, the Exodus ministry overall and a very patient counselor. I think the most important thing at this time was my determination to be free from all the hurts & wrong perceptions that had caused me to look towards another person fulfilling needs only God my Father

can. Today I am the director of "Sanctuary" ministry on the Sunshine Coast (a member ministry of EXODUS) in Queensland, Australia. I have two boys 24 & 33 yrs. John , my husband sadly passed away some 7 years ago. We would have celebrated 40 years of marriage had he still been with us.

We had worked through much together and God was faithful and enabled us who made a "lifelong" commitment to honour each other. Today I honour my heavenly Father and remain celibate. Life is not about who our partner is, but about a “lifelong” commitment to Christ and His love for us.

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